#3, #2, #1...Happy Birthday to me!

  Yesterday was my birthday! I didn't get to writing a post because of being busy all day. Other days I didn't write because I was so sick with a stomach bug and headache. It is my sincerest apologies that I haven't been writing recently. For the past multiple days I will give everybody an update on what's going on in my family and a clue into my personal life. 

December started off a little shaky for my family. We had new tablets and were all getting pumped up for my birthday and the upcoming Yule. Everybody just says Christmas in this house though and I've just kind of gotten used to it. Anyway, as the days passed I figured out I was getting sick and feverish. I just didn't want to feel gross and icky on my 20th birthday! 

When my birthday came I felt great. My father sent me a card with a little letter written on the side of it and two stamps inside. He says he has an item for me but he wants to verify our address. This is the schizophrenic tendencies in him and I've honestly have gotten used to this by now. Irregardless, I love my dad and have accepted him for who he is, not based on his illnesses. 

So far I've gotten $20 in singles and am going to be getting $50 in the mail on a gift card. That's $70 alone. Then to add to that I will be getting $27 in the mail from Inbox Dollars in which I've painstakingly done surveys and other things on the site for. So altogether that's almost $100! In addition to money I have received a beautiful necklace from my daughter and a beautiful wallet. 

On the flip side the tablet that I got early has already malfunctioned and is going back to Wal-Mart this Tuesday. I am so disappointed in RCA now. Not only has mine been faulty but two more that were ordered are too! That's not where that ends though. Multiple people from multiple websites are disappointed with these tablets and are out getting better ones. There have even been complaints saying that the batteries blow up like popcorn bags. 

Now isn't that scary? I would certainly think so! What if someone was on their tablet and it blew up? I hear a law suit coming from a situation like that. If I were RCA I would get my act together before everyone leaves their products and the company goes down the tubes. 

But that's just my personal opinion on that. I'm sure that they are starting to realize that a lot of people are having complaints and its only a matter of time. As for me I will be getting a Kocaso tablet soon and hopefully that lasts more than a mere two weeks tops. I hope that tablet lasts me years. Well, its almost time for dinner. Have a good night everyone. 

  

B-day Countdown #7, #6, #5 & #4

Good morning everyone. Sorry I'm late on this post. I've been feeling really bad lately. I figured I would post a picture for those days missed. I still have to figure what I want for my birthday treat too. 

I might just go with a pumpkin pie this year instead of cake or cupcakes like I did last year. There's only three more days to decide! And don't mind the no makeup in my pic above. I figured I would take a quick shot while making breakfast. 

I have some not so good news about my mom though. Due to her mental health she's been admitted to Clark's summit state hospital. To make things even worse she's been there for two months! I just really hope she is okay. I haven't seen her in over a year. 

Well, I hope everyone is doing well and is healthy and happy. Have a great day. Now for some coffee! ☕ 😄

B-day Countdown #13

Well, there's less than two weeks til my birthday. Soon I will be on my new tablet with a keyboard instead of this desktop with vista. I mean, who uses vista still and is completely happy with it?

Here is the next 5 years of my life.

From 5-10 years old my cousin was born. No longer was I the only child in the household. And I was jealous. I was very very jealous. All I knew was I needed the attention I used to get and I wasn't going to stand another kid getting in my way of it.

I started to suffer at school and I would only look forward to seeing my friends there. Some of the schoolwork clicked and others not so much. In fourth grade we took a field trip, however. I started to like school again and I also learned to appreciate coal. There was just nothing like a Pennsylvania coal mine.

I also had all my friends. We would all sit together and gossip and compare lip glosses. I made some friends back then that really impacted my life for the long run. I'm glad to say that those friends are still friends with me. Most people don't get to have that long of friendships and a couple of them have kids like I do.

So kudos to those friends. Thank you for keeping tabs with me. I know we don't talk all the time like we used to, but that's okay. As long as we support each other, that's all that matters. Unfortunately, that's only the good side.

When I was 7 my aunt's boyfriend started to molest me. I didn't know what was going on and I'd shake it off and try to ignore it. He'd try to groom me as best as he possibly could. I didn't know it was wrong; I thought that it was normal like he said it was. I didn't even know it'd get worse and that it wouldn't stop till I was 12.

After a while he started to rape me along with continuing to molest me. I didn't really know I was depressed. I thought those feelings were normal and that I could just push them away like I did. I also didn't know what anything was called. Nobody told me what raping and molesting was, despite the fact that it also happened to me while I was a young child from a family member.

I won't go into that, though. I find it more easy to push that away because it happened so long ago that I don't remember it. Anyway, I have to go put the little munchkin to bed so I will go more into how this was resolved tomorrow. Thank you for reading! Sweet dreams everyone. <3 

B-day Countdown #14

#2- First 5 years of life. 

My first 5 years of life we're good and bad. I was put into foster care at 2 years old. I returned home after a while and despite me loving where I was at, I was still going back and forth between homes. I was always between my aunt and foster family and my foster family even tried to adopt me. The court ruled in favor of my aunt though and then I stopped seeing my foster family.

Being with my aunt was really fun. I was the only child in the house at that point and I was a spoiled little niece. My mom just couldn't take proper care of me being that she has illnesses that make her get hospitalized at least once a year. It was very hard being away from my mom and my dad had to have supervised visits due to his illnesses. My first 5 years were probably the best out of my childhood, though.

But that was only the beginning...